My dearest Love and Master,

i dreamed of You  this morning.

i dreamed You  held me close and loved me.. then it switched to a scene ..

 i was tied stretched on O/our bed.. i could feel the pull in each of my arms and legs.. the firm hold of the restraints against my skin.. they were padded and soft..

 the lights were dim and the room was hot.. just the way i like it.. the warmth of the room kissing my skin bare and waiting for You ..

 i saw You  standing dressed in black at the side of the bed.. i dont remember the words exactly but You  called me baby and precious and lots of sweet things.. told me how beautiful i was and how precious a gift my submission was to You  . . . all kinds of loving things all the while Your eyes traveled my body.. taking in every inch...and at the end of it .. You looked into my eyes and wiped the tear You saw escape..

 You whispered i love you  ... staring into my eyes deep.. making sure i saw it in Your eyes.. finally You  were satisfied that i believed You .. and stepped away..

 i turned my head and watched as You  picked up a knife from the bedside table and came back to lay along side me.. turned on Your side and propped up on one elbow..

 very slowly i watched as You stroked the blade down my body in a straight like.. the knife edge long and hard against my skin from the tip of my chin down across my throat.. As i made a soft sound in my throat and felt it vibrate the knife.. You  dragged the blade softly between my breasts touching neither of them and over my belly where i could see the light white scratch the blade left behind .. as Your hand swept lower i watched.. my breath under control seemingly unaffected but entranced.. as You  brushed over my scars You  stopped and looked at me.. concern on Your face.. and i smiled at You  to ease the concern from Your eyes..

 You laid the knife long ways across me .. i felt the weight of the blade heavy against my pubic bone and sensitive scar tissue.. as You  pulled Your hand up to caress my face..

then You  cupped my cheek with Your hand and turned my face to look into You r eyes.. You spoke to me of trust and how You  know i trust You  ... i trust You  to tie me while You  sweetly torture orgasm after orgasm from my body ...

 then i saw the but... hiding in You r eyes and looked at You  fear sneaking into mine.. What... But what.. Then i felt You  reach over me. Stretching long across my body and i was shocked to feel You release the restraint at my wrist.

i looked at You  perplexed.. but left my arm stretched out.. as You  reached for the other wrists and released that one as well.. sat up and undid one ankle.. Leaving the one across the bed fastened..

Then You  laid back down and looked at me.. Laying silently watching You  with a lost confusion..

You  said... "Do you  trust me baby?".. i nodded.. you  took my face in your hand and looked me straight in the eye... "Do you  Trust ME?" yes i whispered.. then You  smiled.. i know it.. "But do you  trust Me enough to let Me test my control of you ?.. if i truly control you  .. you  need no restraint.. you  will not move.. you  will not make a sound unless i tell you  to.. This is a test of my control precious... lets see how W/we do hmm?"

 You  reached for the knife and stroked it down my pubic bone and over my lips just a very light brushing touch as i lay quietly feeling the slide of the blade.. as You  reached the full length of my slit i felt the press of the blade as You  pressed it warm now from the heat of my skin between them .. i stay so perfectly still just feeling the hard blade lightly between my lips..

i sigh lightly and You  look up to me quickly that stay still look in You r eye.. as i feel You  pull the blade carefully away and begin stroking the tip in some intricate pattern down the inside of my thigh..  

i could feel the scratch of the blade as You  carve down to my knee.. Pulling the blade away You  start on the other side making the same intricate scratch pattern up my leg until You  are once again against my slit...

i feel the blunt end of the knife Hot from Your hand slide up and in between my lips ...  

Then the tip press pointy right at my pubic bone.. The slight prick of the point increasing with the weight of the knife and the pressure of You r hand.. as You  reach between my thighs.. Feeling me so wet and slippery You  slide 2 fingers suddenly deep inside me to tickle my g-spot..

i shudder...causing the point of the knife to dig deeper into my skin and feel my muscles spasm tightly against Your fingers..

 Your concentration is focused on the knife and Your hand and i feel a longing.. an aloneness.. i cant place..

i whimper softly and You  look up to hush me but see the look in my eyes and smile instead... letting me know You  are with me.. i relax and just feel..  

You  slowly increase the pressure and rhythm of Your fingers inside me stroking me towards orgasm as i feel my breath come heavier and bite my lip to stay silent..

But You  look at me again a knowing smile on Your face.. i moan softly and You  nod encouragingly and begin the stroke the blade over my belly and sides all the while increasing the intensity of my need and heat building fast in my belly..

 Seeing the pleading look in my eyes i hear You  say "No.. Not yet.. Not nearly yet.." and You  pull You r fingers from me and i watch as You  first bring them to Your mouth and then mine to suckle the juices from..

i taste the tangy sweetly salty taste and smile at You  as You  pull away and fondle my breast.. thumbs moving expertly over my nipples hardening them slowly until they ache.. then You  take one of them into Your mouth tonguing it lightly while rolling the other in Your hand..

 Suddenly i heard another voice calling to me.. hey .. and i opened my eyes .. i felt such a loss i almost cried my love. i was heartbroken and lost.. i snapped at John.. and he got what he came for and left quickly.. i closed my eyes.. begging the dream to return.. but it wouldn't and i sat and cried for a few minutes.. Then steeling my resolve i sat up and decided to write to You  until You  came ... and now love i am going to end this so that You  can read it.. i Love You .. and do trust You  enough NOT to be tied..